Personal Hell

So I am feeling a bit ragged--- like I have seriously created my own personal hell... than again maybe I did. Anyways right now it is looking like I am going to be married by the end of January and a army wife right about the same time. I don't mind much of this as you know some of it is my idea its just that I was planning a wedding almost 2 years out and now I have 6 weeks. I'm thinking of down-sizing the wedding party but at the same point I would like it if the majority of the guest showed up. Than again if that's what I want I need to get the invites out soon, oh and I need to go get my dress altered, and who knows how long that will take. As i said personal hell as I have 3 weeks left of this semester.

Its cold here, snow falling outside, I desperately want to move south. And when I/We do move I'm going to have to do most of it myself as well as get the house set up and get myself back into school since I really want to finish my degree. I can't wait for the semester to be over I need a few days to just sleep, I am seriously just happy my stomach isn't acting up.

...feeling like the outsider and some news.

So yesterday was thanksgiving and while my family traveled to my grandmas on wensday I was stuck in class. That being said that set me up to have thanksgiving dinner with the dear fiances family. Well I've learned somthing, I am very tired of being the nice person. What do I mean by that, well the FI's oldest brother is also engaged, to a complete witch. I know some things that she has lied to my future in-laws about but I have kept my mouth shut. And yet I have tried several time to engage her in wedding chat-chat or to even just say hello, but she just wants nothing to do with me, and that really made me upset yesterday so I just sat silently around the future family and just let her make a fool of herself- she didnt need my help with that.

But anyways it seems like the FI has decided that he wants to join the army and I am very supportive of that, my dad is AF, my older brother a Marine, I am very used to being supportive of the millitary and very used to the lifestyle it entails. I'M just a little freaked out because we have yet to go in and talk to the recruiters and get the ball rolling... and I am very much one of those people that likes to have a plan layed out, and at this point i dont even have the information to build a plan around except that we would like to be married before he leaves for basic, so my brain is in freak out mood. Just wish I had someone here with me to talk to but my only company is 2 cats and a bird. It will be ok, and I know it will work out- I could have our wedding planned in a month if I needed to but for now I just need to support him.

Garh

I am really irritated and frustrated at the moment. My fiance it seems has been putting forth minimal effort in his classes and very well might be placed and academic probation. I tried talking some sense into him on Friday saying that if he doesn't get it together we are going to have to delay the wedding. I know I am well on track to graduate on time but at this rate it doesn't look like he is. I love him dearly, but I just don't want to get married while either of us is still in school, and now I'm stuck. One of his classmates is telling me that if he doesn't get his head out of his ass i might be better off to move on, not what I want to do, but we all know you can't change a guy unless they want to change and even than it isn't guaranteed to do anything for your relationship.

YAY...lol

SO I'm at school (college) working on things for classes have to present a welcome speech next week, lots to do. Have accounting and psychology this afternoon, i think we have a test in Acct. on Friday but I am ready for it now. I got my REAL engagement ring earlier this week and I LOVE it. been bored a lot lately. Bunches going on but it doesn't seem like much.

Been a While Crocidile

So it seems to have been awhile-- as a matter of fact it has been a while since anything As a matter of fact the last time I posted was just before prom my freshman year and now I'm going to be a freshman in college. But Firestorm has been around lately, she has been visiting and my beautiful locale but she mostly came to visit her mom.
Things that have happened to me in the last few months

Gotten engaged
Become an Aunt
Be asked to be in Firestorms wedding (the reaffirmation of their vows in a catholic church)
Realize that my car needs to be Fixed again.
Realize that college is WAY expensive ($700 some for books for ONE semester!)

Hm I can't seem to think of much more to post at the moment. Oh but I suppose I should eventfully post a link to my twitter-- if anyone would even care. Maybe I will convince Firestorm to get a twitter.